I suddenly felt like writing a journal today. Last time I wrote one was on Jan the 6th /09. Prety pathetic eh?

I can't beleive it's less than a month till my b-day. It donsn't feel like I'm going to be 17. I havn't even got my drivers licence. And one more year, and then we're all off to university. It's really given me something to think about and what I want to do with my life. Has anyone else ever thought about what they want to do? Not just the job, but how you want to live your life, what you want to do, how you want to feel, who you want or what type of people you want in your life, how you want your life to end, whay do you want to be remembered for, what impression do you want to leave on the earth, what legacy do you want to have... ect, ect, ect. Does anyone have any answers?

Moving on to a lighter topic... I had CMC on Saturday. I know this will soud really self centered, but I couldn't beleive how well I was playing!!! I honestly didn't think that I was capable of making that type of music and I just couldn't beleive what I was hearing. I could feel a kind of energy just flowing through me and I don't really know what it was, but I've never been able to generate anything such as that before. It was a great experience and definetly a turning point in life. Do you mark turning points in your life? Just curious. Sadly, I didn't make it to nationals, but I honestly didn't really care. It was... liberating. Only 2 out of about 9 people made it through provincials. So, not too bad.

Anothing funny thing is the lunch we had in Toronto. I forget what the steak house was called, but it was really, really, nice. We walked in and immidiatly we were greeted by people wearing tux's. Everything was amazing and the steak was the best I've ever had. My mother and I split a meal. The only problem was the bill. It cost us about $150 dollars for the meal. Crazy! But it was definetly the most upscale resarant I've ever been to. I think that was the most money that we ever spent on a meal, but still, it was worth it for the memory. (Even with the price, my Mom said she'd still go back there again!) It was really goreat.

Anyhow, I've rambled on enough. How is everyone's long weekend so far? If you don't tell me now, I'll eventually get it out of you at school!!! There is no escaping!!!!


You know, for the little things for mood that you show how you're feeling when you're writing this journal, they should have one for "conflicted". Like come on!!! How may people actually feel one emotion at once or even know what they're feeling half of their life!!! So I'll just stick with "tired" for now.